Seroquel withdrawal update; part 6, Seroquel is gone; hell exists

I've been asleep for about 3.5 hours. I woke up at 1:37 am and had curled into a fetal position again and the pain in my head woke me up. I tried to relax and stretch out my legs, and could not move. Once again, my cat jumped onto my hip, and I am wondering if the cat senses something is wrong; she appears to me watching me sleep. I woke up again at 2:37 am and the pain in my head is unbearable, and my eyes are swollen. I once again was curled into the fetal position and could not move. I tried to go back to sleep, but my hands are shaking so bad, that is a distraction. I just got up. My hands are shaking so bad it was difficult to hold a glass to drink some water. I feel scared. I started thinking about my daughter's Zyprexa removal after she had been taking it for 6 years; and how she went out of her mind coming off of it. I fear I won't be able to stop taking Seroquel. I am hyper-sensitive to medications and reductions, and this is the worst one ever. I am still flushed, have extreme nausea, and this has taken me quite some time to type; but wanted to chart it. My eyes are extremely puffy and swollen, it's hard to look at this screen to type.

If there is a hell, I exist within it's grasp at this moment, in the dark morning hour, I shake and tremble, the inferno in my head has a grip too strong to endure. Defeat feels imminent; with consideration of taking a 25 mg. of Seroquel to make this stop.