Thursday, February 26, 2009

wings


yesterday, my daughter wrote me a note. it was a list. it included, "haircut". she planned it herself, took charge and allowed others into her space she keeps to herself. it's the first haircut in almost 2 years. as i sat there, watching her get a haircut and seeing her smile at herself in the mirror, i couldn't help but take the moment, cherish it, embrace it and smile with her. she never said one word. she didn't have to, she is speaking volumes by her smiles and actions. she looked radiant when she walked out of the salon. then she went into a grocery store and bought herself a donut.paid for it, did the transaction herself. this was such an enormous thing for her to do, all i can say is i'm witness to a transformation, a miracle, every single day. she's my inspiration.


10 comments:

kristi said...

Awww...this is wonderful!

Stan said...

Dear Steph:

Good news tempered with soft songs of optimism and hope. Lins is in our hearts as a representation of everyone's child of hope and dreams yet to be fulfilled.

She is now taking the beginning wobbled steps, yet walking still down a grassy path toward a renewed journey from that dim place of internal silence and loss, and unto the mountain peak shouting out in a soothing muffled glee "I fly, I fly in the face of the dark dead black night, I have my wings and now finally I begin to Fly with broken wings once more"

Now she becomes our inspiration; Lins is the flickering candle that lights our way through the bleak darkness of those less embraced times, giving us a mapped out precious gift of held sweet breath.

Thank you Steph, Thank you Lins!

Step forth and live; live in all the rainbows of imagination with a brimming passion of being and today. Miracles are said to actions we have yet imagined and believe in. This is Love defined in the best of its true meaning and definition.

Yours Truly,
Stan

Stephany said...

thank you Kristi ((hugs))

Stan,

Now I am crying. I never thought I'd have a day with L like that again, honestly. Seeing her start to walk out of the shadows of the trauma is almost overwhelming, it fills me with joy that I can barely describe. ((hugs))

Mark Krusen said...

Stephany,

That smile must have been awesome. I can only imagine how you must be feeling. I hope your not waiting to long for that first outright laugh.

Ana said...

((((((((Stephany)))))))),
I'm very happy for you.
I believe that you are happy and Lindsay can feel your happiness.
I'm not feeling like crying.
I also achieved something very important: acceptance.
Wow!
There they go!
Tears of joy!
We have cried together a lot.
Now it's time for the good crying.
I'm feeling in connection with your happiness in the same state of mind.
Stay at peace and let her know you're at peace.

Cheryl said...

Pure joy! I'm so happy you had this time with your daughter. She is an inspiration, as are you.
XXXXX

Stephany said...

Mark, thank you, I would be excited to hear her laughter again, especially because then she would be feeling like it sounds!

Ana, I had happy tears too...it's amazing how a young woman like her can keep us all inspired. She has been brave and deserves the world for what she has been through.

Cheryl, thank you, ((hugs)))

kmbrco said...

I can only imagine how your heart must have swelled with warmth and love. I hope you have another day just as grand. And another, and another...

preciousrock said...

What a great victory for her and for you!

Stephany said...

thanks kmbrco, and PR, yes it was great because it's taking action on her part, like really saying, 'look i'm here' ; and for me seeing the haircut is a visual reminder she is here and to not give up.