free spirits

so today was allowance day for my daughter and she picked out a wallet and bought a couple of items, she had a list written out when we picked her up. after a country drive and lunch she pointed to the note to return to one of the stores she bought things at. we took her back and she took out a package of markers she bought and put them back on the shelf rack. i reminded her she needed to show her receipt and take it to the clerk so she could get her money back. she's handling money and doing all of these things without talking. i came home and saw this video when i was looking for one with horses. this one caught my attention because we've driven past wild horses monument featured in one of the photos. she loves that and it's awesome to see in person. then i went on a walk and after all night pain last night(seriously awful advil didn't make a dent)what the heck my legs don't hurt and i was able to run a small jog or two on the knees. lack of sleep from the legs is really getting on my nerves. but hell, i can't stop now, i've got a decade of baggage to lose in a way.i also am writing as it comes to me, but i wanted to note myself to remember my daughter cannot be expected to embrace "life goes on" if mom isn't modeling it. you know? so i talk about how i am working more and the more we both do back in this world the easier it will get. i also cannot lose sight of self-care. and promoting her and encouraging her independence. she's doing great and i also have to make sure i don't assume or expect too much of her, like today when she forgot a step to return an item. i got home and thought, well, adults become disabled everyday, and sometimes, it can be your own adult child. but then, on the walk, i was thinking how i can't label her disabled. she is able.

take care of your spirit, it's the one thing we have no one can take away.it might be broken, but i believe it can heal. mine is.