friday ramble

this is from last year but they are in bloom now in my backyard, and are drawing attention from big buzzing bees. it's been nice to sit outside on the patio again now that it's daylight longer it's a nice place to unwind as usual. i've been on my walks every day, some days the muscles i'm creating burn and cramp up and i admit to shedding a few more tears while walking, what a wimp. my daughter had a good day yesterday, she got her allowance, signed the papers and did her laundry, went on errands with me and then she ate a donut and chocolate milk. gave me a big smile when i left. have a nice weekend, everyone. oh--and for those following my psych med taper, i've been at another decrease of xanax for a week. i'm down .25mg, bringing the daily total to .5mg alprazolam/xanax once a day. the lowest so far in the last 10 years of taking it. august 09 will mark the decade date of starting that drug when my PCP gave it to me (and continued to refill without monitoring) when he told me "things will roll off your back". he told me that when he gave me prozac and trazedone too. i wonder how much of my life the last decade was blurred not just from my daughter's crisis and my financial crises, but by the drugging of my mind. i'm .5mg of alprazolam away from no benzos in a decade. good riddance!