choppy waters

you'd think i was trying to visit someone in prison. remodel of the ward floor has left with a removal of the 2 designated visiting rooms. more open space for patients and no space for visitors. moved from 4 places today in a very small (30 min) space of time. told to go to the craft room and it was in use. told to go to treatment planning room which was locked. waited by treatment planning room for someone to unlock it. someone shows up and says now they are unlocking it for someone else's visitors. go back to the open space area and find a table. daughter finally settles into a chair to draw and write. 5 minutes later we are moved to other side of room so cleaning crew can mop. daughter then goes to a group, and we are told to leave. don't think much more needs to be said about this shit for crap system that treats patients and family members this way. dump the visiting hour or give us somewhere to go. oh, yes then sign out and wait for someone to key up the elevator. want us gone, but don't open the elevator. then tell us not to stand there next to patients. feel like crap, and all i want to do is check on my daughter. got threatened yesterday by a patient and sunday one tried to take daughter's food. the one yesterday was reprimanded for telling me i had to "control my daughter or she would beat the shit outta my daughter". today the woman glares at me. i avoid her. i guess i am lucky i can leave the locked up prison called psych care. doesn't feel very good though. where does someone go get well with dignity and not feel like your family are enemies without a place to sit down and be together for a few minutes. is that too much to ask? they arent used to people having visitors so they removed the rooms for open space is my theory. then when someone does have someone like me coming in i am scrutinized and considered a problem. where would you like me to go during visiting time if you don't have a place for me? unfortunately this is par for the course and after a decade and several psych hospitals later it's the method of operation for mental health care. sub standard, low end, crap. try to feel optimistic now. go on a walk. clear your mind. focus on your daughter. your daughter knows she has you. you are a good mother. massive headache now. sobbing might help, but that means they broke me. won't let them.