she loves horses. she considers herself a free spirit. she was an active humane society volunteer. she ran the front desk at a food bank. she won art and photography awards.
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she has had psychosis strangle the life out of her mind in a tortuous manner. on thanksgiving day she once again talked of a ranch with 35 horses. she loves horses and always wanted a barn with dogs, horses and freedom. if we were to truly listen to her, she would have that. not a lifetime of drugs and options for mental health wellness we have in the U.S. she would have that ranch to run free on, feel her feelings and live with psychosis, and maybe, shall we entertain the idea of being well off of drugs? i reach for the answers from above and they do not come to me. i climbed a mountain only to realize that i only began the journey once i reached the top.
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this is one of her favorite songs, so this is for her. the photographs are mine, one of wild horses in montana, and of the one on the horse that i titled, "my hero". the other, in a locked down psych ward.
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i cannot imagine her being back in that institution, and if it happens, she will be there on Christmas and on her birthday---New Year's Eve. If I had a wish, it would be for my daughter to have her place, the place she deserves that i cannot provide. wide open spaces.
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Stephany, this brought tears to my eyes. Our children deserve those places, wide open spaces, safe places, places to be themselves and develop their positive abilities. They also need drugs that work, that don't make them sleep 18 hours/day, gain 100+ pounds, develop diabetes, etc. It's so frustrating that we can't give them what they need!!!
thank you Galen
Your post made me wonder if there are any good farm treatment centers. I found this place http://www.cooperriis.org/index.html.Of course, it's out of the reach, financially, of most of us. Wow, if only there were more options like this, affordable ones!
Stephany - this touched my heart because I share this same dream as your daughter of living on a ranch with horses. This may sound stupid but what is/are the criteria for her being released from the hospital?
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