Wednesday, December 02, 2009
angel hair around the christmas tree
angel hair was always at the base of my mom's christmas tree. my daughter ate the tortellini i made for her this morning, this time with marinara sauce. i've been packing food containers and plastic spoons, a napkin and goodies in wax paper bags. we sit with her and she laughs a little, eats and sorts cards. when she was home, and any time in a restaurant, she would order angel hair pomodoro. after i got back from the hospital and ate lunch, we trekked to the dog park and spent a couple of hours there. she would like it there. i think that housing is the main issue for criteria for discharge, after thinking about what 3 separate people with 3 separate jobs in this situation said, that's what was the same out of each of their mouths. housing criteria, what housing is available? the place that wouldn't call the police when she was missing 3 hours? i think the angel hair around the christmas tree was replaced with a tree skirt eventually. it was probably some sort of cancer-causing material anyway. but it looked pretty. how do you plan for a possible christmas at a state institution. you close your eyes and think of all of the christmas trees from your lifetime, and go from there.
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I cant Steph. And I am sorry you may have too.
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Hi Stephany,
Tortellini are one of my favourite dishes.
I guess it is still step by step.
Wish we could get Santa to organise a safe place for your daughter to live.
Big hug.
Love,
Herrad
Your post makes me think of my saddest Christmas ever. My son had had his first major schizophrenic episode and was spending what turned out to be 7 months in the state hospital. He was there on Christmas. My dad had died on Dec. 6 that year. I wanted to do nothing but crawl under the covers, but I had to do my best to make a Christmas effort for my other 3 sons who were home, for my mother, for my son in the hospital. So I know that, even though your heart is heavy, your plan will be for whatever will make your daughter smile, whatever will nurture that wonderful spirit within her.
Galen, this falls on the heels of 2007 i had won in court the last time this hosp tried to send her to the state hospital. i had found her a place to live in the mental health system with caregivers, she was extremely fragile, and had lost much body weight.
that christmas 2007, it was great relief to have her not locked up. january 2008, i had brought her home for a visit, she pet the dog and saw my parents photo on the fridge--i asked her if she remembered them, she nodded yes (was still non verbal). my dad was killed flying his airplane that day. by june 08 i was in bankruptcy court, medical bills.anyway, that;s for perspective since it's all scattered all thru this blog.
I think my daughter deserves more than this system has handed her in the name of care, i hope i can help her.
yes, if there was a wish for Santa, that would be mine too Herrad.
thanks Noe Noe, i appreciate all of you supporting me here.
whatever happens, i'll be there for my daughter.
Hi Stephany,
Please come by my blog and pick up your award.
Love,
Herrad
I know you love your daughter. My daughter loved Tortellini too. =)
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