gratitude

i am overwhelmed at the support, encouragement, love and concern expressed from so many people from around the world for my daughter. thank you, from my heart, it is so appreciated. i have received so many thoughtful comments and post dedications and emails that i just wanted every one to know how much it means to me and uplifts me. to know so many people are keeping my daughter in their heart and thoughts is humbling, and truly lifts my weary soul. it has been exhausting the last 24 hours, today my daughter was eating lunch when we got there, which was a great relief to me to see her having hot food served to her in a civilized eating situation, and the staff that are keeping her safe via one to one care are good, she was moving about and getting the feel for the place and we did catch a smile or two from her, candy bars and potato chips were a hit. one day at a time. when i didn't think i could get out of bed one more time and do the grueling day filled with agony, it is accomplished by forging ahead. one step at a time, puffy eyes and a tired body, you just go. the anxiety and grief at times felt crippling, but the focus remains on my daughter and you just move. people have often asked me how i do it, and that's it. you take a reprieve when you can, like walking the dog. it's not comfortable, last night and when i woke up this morning it was that feeling of something is wrong, like a death happened. you forge ahead. somehow, that sun still rises and sets and you just keep going. it's important for everyone to know this, it is possible to survive times that often feel so overwhelming you don't know how it will turn out. but, the next day always holds a chance for a new beginning, a new way, a better way.