imperative being, in the moment ramble

by christmas eve, i had unraveled into a sobbing disaster. it was imperative that i gain control over my emotional gut-kick i had felt from the transfer to the institution.

this last week was difficult, but it went on. there were reprieves along the way the last few days. some nice walks, that are mandatory for keeping my mind calm and rational. i had to tell myself to get a grip for myself and those around me, and keep it that way.i was also able to take a break after the hospital on my birthday and celebrate the moment. my mom gave me gas money. i have people who love me. i created a recipe while walking in the grocery store last night , using cooking for diversion of thought:

stephany's shrimp bisque

1 package of pepperidge farm puff pastry, bake according to directions
1/2 cup cooked tiny shrimp
2-3 T butter
1/2 cup heavy cream
1 clove garlic, pressed
1 can campbell's cream of shrimp soup
3 oz brick of cream cheese
dash of salt
1/4 cup or so of chardonnay wine
2 T shredded parmesean cheese

Bake the puff pastries, while they are baking, melt butter in sauce pan, add the garlic and everything else. stir until smooth, adding cream and wine to taste. i usually don't measure things when i cook, so this is pretty simple to expand on. once the pastry is baked, i placed 3 in each large soup bowl. place a little parmesean cheese inside the bottom of the pastry. add generous amounts of the soup into the pastries in each bowl, this recipe made 2 hearty servings. place the little pastry "cap" on top after sprinkling a little bit of grated sharp cheddar cheese on the soup. it was delicious if i do say so myself. enjoy the moment, each one is a gift.