standing at the window next to our little table, the view became part of an extraordinary event. "look, there she is!", i exclaimed. my daughter's face lit up brilliantly, as she exclaimed, "yes!, yes!", and was leaning toward the window watching her sister wave from the parking lot at the hospital yesterday.
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"all of the negative thoughts are on the back burner now, for this one golden moment is yours to live, live in this moment." i said to her as we sat and ate salami and cheese and crackers, pickles and olives, and chips. all of her favorite snacks, and shared with her sister.
this was a glorious moment for me too. i won't forget how she looked, the pure JOY she had and the smile that one staff member said, "have never seen on her before".
she ran from the window to the elevator anxiously waiting for it to open, and when it did she hugged her sister for the longest time. at that very moment, the hospital psychologist who had testified against her in court (using negative chart comments and statements such as "delusional, weird behavior") , walked out of the other elevator and witnessed this golden moment. that person's face held a smile i have never seen before too.
yesterday's golden moment is one i hope sustains my daughter through the next few weeks. they ate together and played catch with a squiggly koosh ball her sister gave her.
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live in the moment, i did, and i am savoring it.
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Steph- this is so precious! It makes my heart sing when I hear happiness in your words. I continue to pray for comfort and joy for you and your baby girl.
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Will the hospital be able to re-evaluate and then retreat from its current position? Most people have to grow a big ol' set of cajones in order to acknowledge a mistaken perception, particularly when they've acted upon it.
Or will it merely view this as a blip, and not indicative either of a wrong diagnosis, or at the very least the early signs of recovery? The trouble is, the longer things go on, the clearer it will become that there's nothing wrong with Linds - her behaviour is absolutely rational, based upon the stimuli she's been subjected to and the behavioural tools she's had at her disposal for dealing with those stimuli. And the longer things go on, the more people will notice that Linds has been required to be mentally ill (whatever that means), for the benefit of a system that didn't understand what had happened, and didn't take the time to find out.
And the more people who notice, the more embarassing it could be. Either that, or a miraculous cure is heralded.
Anyway, I hate to say I told you so, but I did point out that it's nearly impossible to not mirror a person who is smiling. It's just easier to agree. By the same token, it's very hard to smile at a person who's screaming in your face... Hence the value of a mediator.
Matt
Some moments are a gift, pure and simple.
And the word verification is "gracer" ...
Sometimes it is the little moments that matter.
Sweet little moments are so important. Cherish them.
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