the sky was heavy with mist, so much it was as if a cloud descended and remained that way as i drove. the drive seems longer each day, as if eternity is sought and never will be found. the tapping of the windshield wipers keeps rhythm with the grooves in the road. from my car and from a distance this is the view of just one small wing of the hospital. the one my daughter happens to reside. as i took the photo from inside the car i wondered if the presence of this place would show up in a photo and i think it does. the atmosphere inside the ward today was tense. so many people want out, so many voices. my daughter said one word. "hostage". as of december 21, 2009 she has not been taken outside, though i have insisted. considering she has been inpatient since august 27, 2009 between both hospitals, she hasn't seen the light of day except via windows. maybe that will change this week.reference point article
Furious Seasons, authored by Philip Dawdy
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Hi, Throwing out an inquiry - is your daughter in any way related to the McGahan or Orr family in either Alaska or Michigan? Of Irish/Scottish descent? Respectfully, not2cold@gmail.com
Not those names, though yes as you can see Irish/Scottish descent. Be well.
i will say that does not look like a very happy place as I know you know all too well Steph. hoping for a better end of the week for you and your baby girl.
and 50's not so bad. you look great! stay strong my friend.
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It's just common sense to know that people need sunlight and fresh air to be healthy. Surely these docs know this? I felt caged in the hospital which only increased the agitation. Keep fighting for this.
It was a feeling like no other to finally walk outside and feel the sun on my face. It felt so good.
Do you think the staff at that hospital read your blog? I hope they do.
this is the notorius institution on the west coast, that did lobotomy and ECT, old since 1871. yes, fighting for fresh air and walking is the minimum, and then it's active day treatment plan (like how to keep busy all day)
Stephany, I ask because my daughter has similar psychiatric issues and our girls share remarkably similar looks, especially at the younger ages - in fact, the pictures of your daughter at age 4 could be either myself or my daughter...uncanny likeness. Our ancestors were Irish/Scottish immigrants that settled originally in Michigan...large families. There is a book, 'Stalking Irish Madness" byt Patrick Tracey, that pinpoints a particular area in Ireland. Curious-er.
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