my heart

after all of the people left the room from the meeting, my daughter was still sitting in her chair. the staff insisting it was time for us to leave. i leaned over my daughter, hugging her shoulders and kissed her on the top of her head. saying my goodbyes, she said, "do that again". i walked back over to her, hugged her in her chair and kissed the top of her head and told her i loved her.

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the day after that meeting

january 7, 2010



went to visit her as planned at 4pm. she was OK. she ate popcorn and was writing a lot of thoughts on a piece of paper. she moved the paper toward her advocate to read and she wrote quite a lot. about the summer trips for ice cream, and asking what she was doing there. she got up and went to her room to retrieve playdoh and we all sat and did sculpture art, and sorted cards, and smiled and it was a good (as usual) visit. as we left, it was dark outside and i looked up and saw her in the window.