tenacity

Let me tell you the secret that has led me to my goal: my strength lies solely in my tenacity.


--Louis Pasteur


persistent determination requires guts and a lot of deoderant. i've began a process to attempt to get into a program that has grants and funding for someone like me to further my education, besides a couple of other things i'm working on in the 'me' category. it's unnerving, and demands faith in myself. this leads to at times, a terrified feeling, always having to banish the 'you're a failure' tape that runs in my mind and replace it with 'you can do it'. maybe others can relate. i know other women have done a lot more than i have, in extreme situations. i guess to have courage first you have fear applies here. courage to begin a task that seems daunting to me, and now is a waiting process for paperwork i have to deal with, i should have done these things a long time ago. i tell myself, don't look back, just go forward, no regrets,(well regrets but they can take their place which is to not dwell on them) strive for your goal with relentless determination to succeed. if i can do this, after the last decade, i will then feel i have accomplished something with my life.